What do I want?

A desire to do something, I get it.
That's what want means but
What do I really want,
How do I really feel?

I get confused like really.
I don't want to open up but I will certainly.
It's like talking in codes
but you will understand what i mean if you've been through it
SO, here it is!

All you in this room is seen

Most of you are good

and few of you are into my grip

Its not a hard one but lets say its stalking

People I like keep getting lost

Nowhere to be found expect in thoughts

Creation of crazy thoughts

I choose you and you and you

no talk, no watch. You will notice but you are in doubt

I am everywhere you are just not connected

I try to open up and shut down  just not to get busted
Even if I talk i fear if its more fun, than this

Chasing is greater than achieving already

Its in my head

Its in my mind

Its just a illusion

Its just a post image i am sure to see 

I don't want what you want but I want you

But do I really want you or to want you?

do I really care enough to get near?

do I really worth of your attention,

but again is it really alright to just run behind?
I know I won't initiate it no matter of the loss.

I know you don't really care how much I rush.

But still, its a mirage i keep seeing

and then again is the mirage for me?

Do i really want you or want to want you?

I think i want you to want me .!

GAZANANDA