With you its different
different kind of vibe
different kind of feel
the way you talk,speak and move
I am always there watching from distance.

We meet in my thoughts and dreams.
I call me loser and to challenge my self
I try and best say hi to you in my extreme
its like you study biology i study computer
and both of us have different definition for cell

You may not like me
but i like you and you may hate me
but i don't hate you
its funny thing about love
I can love whoever i want so do you

I am not the type to make promises
But i don't think i will be scared if you ask me to
the pace and race against time goes on
and i find myself at the end of the line ready to fail
but failure still feels awesome if its for you
but its kills me to know i failed you

The ancient ones And holy book

When the think of holy book
The ancient ones
The Vedas, Mahabharata and Ramayana
I know the writers were creative scientist
They found out a new element  - religion/belief
Merging them with the fear and faith
They saved centuries long deaths
Deaths which could be caused by being unhygienic, unscathed , or natural diseases
They gave away the details in such a clever way
They called Ayurveda incarnation of lords
They compelled people to eat, work and restrain
Forced them for clean environment and socialization among family and friend
They literally brought good from human in return of heaven

Woah, all hail to those writers
 The creative travelers and whim workers 
They played all of it so cool 
People believe in them for so long 
They gave origin stories, early and youth struggles and deaths 
.Its like a franchise movies of gods replaced by books

It definitely helped back then
But what now
People's faith failing
On love, life and gods
They try to follow Science but not understand
They see the stories but not the action
They visualize the whole scene but do not learn
It matters not if the god really exist
I do not care what y'all believe
Keep on the good work, don't kill

But the gold old man

I mean, the writer/scientists

!Could be as evil as devil

.Made all these religion fuss

,Cause they knew this day will come

.Hatred. Discrimination. Mass murder

.These all based on people's faith

.Damn, that devil is great

.Lot of hard work and patience

,Despite the future you created

.I gladly declare you the greatest

GAZANANDA

What do I want?

A desire to do something, I get it.
That's what want means but
What do I really want,
How do I really feel?

I get confused like really.
I don't want to open up but I will certainly.
It's like talking in codes
but you will understand what i mean if you've been through it
SO, here it is!

All you in this room is seen

Most of you are good

and few of you are into my grip

Its not a hard one but lets say its stalking

People I like keep getting lost

Nowhere to be found expect in thoughts

Creation of crazy thoughts

I choose you and you and you

no talk, no watch. You will notice but you are in doubt

I am everywhere you are just not connected

I try to open up and shut down  just not to get busted
Even if I talk i fear if its more fun, than this

Chasing is greater than achieving already

Its in my head

Its in my mind

Its just a illusion

Its just a post image i am sure to see 

I don't want what you want but I want you

But do I really want you or to want you?

do I really care enough to get near?

do I really worth of your attention,

but again is it really alright to just run behind?
I know I won't initiate it no matter of the loss.

I know you don't really care how much I rush.

But still, its a mirage i keep seeing

and then again is the mirage for me?

Do i really want you or want to want you?

I think i want you to want me .!

GAZANANDA